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When Google the word reliable you will find this photo as the first one.
After 5 days of moderate insomnia, finally I have some good sleep...
I guess it mainly results from my bad habits,
I don't have very regular living schedules..
I often go to bed very late....
In the past week I tried to sleep earlier, but it costs me a lot sleeplessness.
Another reason is that I used some alcohol in the past days...
It must be one of the other causes..
I like Google so much, whenever I have any question,
I Google it, I learn it ... hehe
Anyway...
I still feel I want to solve problems in my own way,
I hope I can be the backbone in my oncoming working team..this is some thing far from easy..
However, it's a much much more important thing than writing poems and flirty messages haha...
I wish I can be a more
confident,
emotionally stronger and
stabler
person before I meet my feature love..
Or to be concise, I want to be an extremely RELIABLE individual.
I love people to feel safe, relaxed while RELYING on me...
It must be a very very WONDERFUL thing to be..
I don't worry how hard my life would be,
life is so short, it doesn't matter how much suffering I have to take..
it is meaningless to be anxious about nuisance
life span vanishes like doing a finger-click (or a mouse-click to make you feel more scary),
then everything is gone..
So there are so many things I worried or worrying are just totally unworthy...
However, now I do worry about one thing: nobody trust on relying on me...
Yes "being reliable" means
disciplines, perseverance, sacrifice, honest, love also happiness ...
I feel "reliable" is one of the most solid words to evaluate one person..
If I can be entitled by this word by my families , friends, colleagues,
or any other ones involving any activity with me, my self-esteem must
be high, my spirit must be high,
and I must be a very respectable person thus with a full heart of love and happiness ...
I really feel I want to try this from now...(this implies I was not that reliable  )
I know it takes a lot lot of efforts, and pains to embed this word into my blood...
but the outcome will be a true beauty...
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